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Senin, 08 Agustus 2011

Streams From My Russian Intermission (It's All About Perspective):











Ah Capitalism--don’t you just love it reader? Not like that Communism that fails every 70 years or so. No sir, with Capitalism you get a good 80 years or more before the shit hits the fan and you have to turn to Socialism or start a war to bail yourself out. Wave the flag! Yippee for money! See how free you feel as you chase those greenbacks? Run and run to catch up with the sun. You’re on the road to self-actualization. Or maybe just hoping for a few kicks and a laugh--something to make you feel like you’re actually living before you have to wake up and start all over again. Don’t want to make the boss mad you know. Tough times out there. You can be replaced with a college kid tomorrow. Or a Hindu. Or a computer. Gotta get those 8 or 9 hours in. Or 10. Important work you’re doing you know. Really getting ahead. Soon you can retire, right? Why else are your working? Then they’ll miss you when you’re gone. Well, maybe not miss you, but they’ll remember the good work you did. All those lasting accomplishments you can look to after you’ve thrown away the best, most vital years of your life in pursuit of...whatever you were pursuing. Or thought you were pursuing. Course you had no choice, right? Gotta work. That’s what they say. Earn your keep. Not enough just to live or be alive, you’ve got to be industrious. A go-getter. Work sets us free isn’t that right? Who said that? No matter. So much truth in the statement its probably from the bible.



At the time I visited Russia, it was just becoming clear to the American people that the war in Iraq was a complete debacle. By then George W. had already changed our public mission from locating weapons of mass destruction to creating Democracy in a country that had never known or asked for it. Dubya seemed to think that by sheer force of will we could alter tribal affiliations and overcome ancient religious animosities. Create a blueprint for a new society based on an ideology as opposed to past realities. Course he had to sell this nonsense to the American people since we’d already lost a couple thousand servicemen and tens of billions of dollars on what he and Cheney probably knew all along was just a goose-chase. A goose-chase that just happened to make Halliburton a billion or so dollars a month* (*might want to fact-check that).



Yet believe it or not, there were actually Americans who believed Dubya. Even after he’d stolen the election. Even after 9/11 and Condoleeza Rice’s admission to the Congressional Committee that she’d received prior
(and recent) intelligence about possible terrorist-plane attacks. Even after no weapons were found in Iraq, they still believed. Or wanted to believe. And in America, if you want to close yourself off in a gated community, watch Fox News, and live in a dream world no one’s gonna stop you.



But Russia’s another story. The Russia I saw had a lot of problems, but one problem the people don’t seem to have is speaking their minds. They live in a harsh reality and call things how they see ‘em. Damn the standard niceties of social settings.



I can’t recall how it came up, but shortly before we visited The Hermitage our tour guide Galina got involved in a conversation with a middle-aged couple on our bus. They were from Atlanta and were so rich that they paid for their 15 year-old daughter’s boyfriend to accompany her on the trip. The kids had their own room. Took their own excursions, and always returned to the bus loaded-down with souvenirs.



Somehow or another Galina and this couple got involved in a conversation about Iraq. I stumbled on to it late, just as Galina was making her point. She was very polite and absent of emotion.



“...but surely you see that this is simply an attempt to secure the oil fields for your country--no? There’s no shame in it. We’d do the same thing.”



The Atlanta businessman stroked his salt-and-pepper beard anxiously as he listened, his southern manners forcing him to let her finish. Until finally he responded.



“Well we’re not like your country,” he finally responded as tactfully as he could. “We’re different. We’re only there because we were attacked. We didn’t want this. We were forced to go over there.”



Galina couldn’t help but break into a smile as she and our bus driver shared a laugh.



“Forced to go over where?--to Saudi Arabia? Isn’t that who attacked you? What did Iraq do besides have oil?”



“What did Iraq do?” the man asked as though trying to reason with a schizophrenic. “What did Iraq do? I mean...Iraq, they...they didn’t let us search for weapons. That’s what for one thing. And...”



“They’re a sovereign country,” Galina suddenly interjected. “Why do they have to let you do anything? Can they demand to inspect your weapons facilities?”



“Well of course not,” the man replied as he shared a look of consternation with his wife. “..But they murdered their own people. They...”



“So did America,” Galina stated flatly. “You committed genocide against your own people.”



“What?” the man asked, seemingly shocked by her audacious claim. “No we....”



“You didn’t?” Galina asked again with that same dry, non-emotion. “Weren’t there people in America before you? Indigenous peoples? What happened to them? And what about in the 1960’s--at your universities? I’m not so very young you know.”



Now the man began to look frustrated. He looked to me for support; and while I promise you I never dissed my country on foreign soil, I saw Galina's point. So I simply took a pull from my vodka-flask and kept quiet.



“...Well that was a long time ago,” the man’s wife finally responded.



“There is no ancient history,” Galina replied coldly, “only history. Don’t be so naive Mr. _____. You Americans, everything has to be for God or some great moral authority. Iraq has oil. You want it, so you take it.” And then in an effort to smooth things over she stroked his arm and repeated, “Trust me, we’d do the same thing.”



Our time in The Hermitage (the Tsar’s old Winter Palace) will have to be covered in another post; but I should mention that at the end of the tour Galina led us into a room where all the Russian Duma members were allegedly seated as they waited for the Communist’s inevitable storming of the palace. As she described the scene of that violent October day back in 1917, Galina turned our attention towards a seemingly innocuous clock that sat on the mantle, hands stuck at 2:11.



“And it was at this moment,” she told us with dramatic flair, “that the Communists stormed into the room, stopped this clock, and declared ‘History starts now!’ Never mind that there was no Communism before. That this was all just an idea never before practiced. This was now our country’s reality. A new world order you might say,” (and here she flashed a sardonic wink at the couple from Atlanta), “which is something I’m sure we can all relate to, in one form or another.”


Galina:







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* NOTE: All pics stolen off Google Images except for this last one depicting the Bush/Cheney War machine; the photo of the clock that started history; and the photo of Galina. All rights reserved on my pics. Thanks for reading!




Jumat, 15 Juli 2011

Streams From My Russian Intermission:





Moscow:



The Dallas Beauty Queen (left) with Coburn (center/glasses). 1st day on the subway:



Coburn in Moscow:



Rules (left); Coburn (ctr.) and the Dallas Beauty Queen outside Hotel Cosmo (start of 1st night)
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Coburn (on bed w/ ice-pack); and Rules (red shirt) at Hotel Cosmo. (End of 1st night):



I could write ten million posts about Russia. What’s stopping me? I was only there for (2) weeks, but flesh-out one idea or event properly and you can write a thousand pages. That trip was long enough ago now that I feel the memories as much as see them in my mind’s eye. I remember emotions. That first sense of aloneness when I’d arrived. So far from everyone that mattered to me. Days later, when my friends and I met-up with the tour group; we visited Novgorod. Coburn and I shared a beer at the bar. He had this distant look as he made mention of his mother. Or my mother now that I think of it. Was she still alive? Course he meant his own mother who’d recently died. You think about those things when you’re far away. I know I did.



I wasn’t used to international travel. I’d have been more than happy to go to Costa Rica. Or Puerto Rico. Or Greece. Or Prague. But they’d already been all those places. They’d been everywhere! And who else did I have to travel with? So that afternoon about 6 years ago I got a conference call at my office. It was Rules. By the tone of her voice I knew they’d made a decision on a destination.



Alright Lodo, you ready?



Ready.



Moscow!



“...Moscow?!”



“Yeahhh!”



“..Russia?”



YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!



“Uh,..okay.”



Russia. Are you kidding me? But once I bought into it I really went all in. Hell, I’m 100% Russian blood. My family’s supposedly from Minsk--not that I ever wanted to freaking go there. But now I was, so l read all kinds of books on Peter and Catherine the Great. About the assassination of Tsar Nicholas and the Communists. About World Wars I and II. Even some obscure pamphlets about the break-up of the State-owned industries under Boris Yeltsin. For a dumb-ass American, I had my shit down.



So much so that I think the Russians thought I was a spy. I’m not kidding. They asked some very odd questions on the visa application. What was my college major? Could I provide the name of one of my professors from Wayne State? What was my H.I.V. status?



When I arrived in Moscow I had a long wait to get thru Customs. I’ve since been told that they probably just wanted a bribe, but I’m not so sure. They seem to be a secretive people by nature. Introverted. Given to intrigue. And here I was: 40+ year old investigator, single guy, who arrived alone from New York. Sounds like the profile of someone up to no good. And I was up to no good! Or at least I was up for it. So we understood each other.



The first Customs Agent I spoke with was a woman; but she simply took my passport and told me to stand against the wall. I stood 5, 10,...20 minutes. In all that time I didn’t see that woman do a thing. No one approached her window and she just stared straight ahead. But eventually a 2nd agent--a man walked over to her window. They conversed a few moments as the man flipped thru my paperwork. Then he called me over with a wave of his hand.



“Mr. Grdzak, correct?,” he asked with a very stern, direct cadence.



The woman watched me answer from over his shoulder.



“Yes sir, that’s correct.”



“And what is the purpose of your visit to Moscow Mr Grdzak?” he asked with the same measured cadence.



“Just visiting,” I responded.



“...I see. And do you have people you plan to visit here?” he asked.



“No sir. I’m meeting up with a tour group in about 2 or 3 days.”



“2 or 3 days? You’re not sure?” he asked with a challenging smile.



“3 days,” I answered.



“3 days. Okay. So what will you be doing ‘til then?” he asked.



“I don’t know. ...Fuck around I guess.”



Jesus people! Any other country would be like, Yeah--come in! Get boozed up. Spend money. Enjoy our great country. But these Russians just didn't get it. When I first checked into the hotel the gorgeous desk clerk with her cold Icelandic features refused to return my passport.



"Hey. Don’t I need that?’



“We’ll keep it here for you. It’ll be safer.”



“Safer from what?”



As soon as Coburn, Rules, and the Dallas Beauty Queen arrived, we went to the the hotel casino for drinks. We shared a round of vodka shots; after which the hotel comped us another round. Then the bartender bought us a round, which the girls gave to Coburn and me. We were pretty lit before we left the hotel. Before all the shit went down about which I’m sworn to secrecy. Or at least I say I’m sworn to secrecy. Fact is, none of us really has all the pieces of what went down that night. Maybe we were set-up. Or maybe it just feels like that in retrospect. You never could shake the feeling over there of being watched. Or followed. On the subway trains the people simply looked at the floor or read a book. No one listened to an Ipod or music player. Conversations were hushed; and certainly no one danced like they will in New York. The people seemed shocked to discover tourists.



“What? You don’t live here?”



“No, we’re Americans.”



“...And you came here?”



“Yeah!”



“...Why?!”



Our first real day in Moscow we visited a flea market. They had great Sheepskin jackets; nesting dolls; lacquered jewel boxes; old Soviet-era pins and classic propaganda T-shirts that my buddy Vintage would bust a nut over. Everything was super quality and dirt cheap; but the Russians limit how much you can take back to the States.



At one point Rules and I were looking at prints when this guy approached us. Totally on his own initiative with no prior contact whatsoever. Not a big guy so much as thick. Big paws. Round skull covered tight in fleshy skin.



“Hey you,” he called to me with a loud voice. “You’re Jewish?”



His wide hand was heavily calloused when I shook it, and I could see his nose had been broken in the past. I looked around at my surroundings since I’d heard about some serious anti-semitism in Russia; but we were the only ones around.



“Yeah, I guess you could say that.” I answered.



“Okay,” he answered with a smile as he looked me up and down. I expected him to say he was Jewish too; or perhaps give me some shit about it; but instead he continued to look me up and down.



“...So, why’d you stop us?” I eventually asked.



“No reason,” he said. “Its just that you looked Jewish to me, so I figured I’d keep an eye out for you. ...Your friend. Looks like you had a rough night last night.”



“How do you know it was last night?” I asked as my heart began to race.



“Well, I just say last night. I don’t really know. How could I?”


* NOTE: All rights reserved on all personal pics.

Minggu, 03 Juli 2011

Lodo Grdzak's Russian Intermission* (*Double-click on Pics for Full-view):




"...they kept staring at Coburn, curious about his injury."

Coburn (left); the Dallas Beauty Queen (right); Rules (head on table) in Moscow
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Rules (left); Coburn (center); and the Dallas Beauty Queen (right) in Moscow:


The Russia I saw a few years back had old cities and poor roads. Their economy was in the dumps and the population struck me as conflicted about capitalism and rather defeated overall. Vodka is sold in action-type; on-the-go bottles normally reserved for water or Gatorade here in the States; and damaged cars or remnants of accidents were a common site on the road.

From Moscow to Novgorod is 304 miles; but it took us all day and a good part of the night to make it by bus. Despite Novgorod being the oldest city in Europe* (*might want to fact-check that), the road between it and Moscow was just two lanes--one in each direction. We had a long intermission between destinations, exacerbated by the fact that the women in our tour group didn’t gel. They stared at my friend Coburn and whispered to themselves, curious about his injury and perhaps even concerned; yet too timid to ask what had happened.

But eventually one woman worked up the nerve.

“Your friend? He’s gonna be alright?”

“Yeah, I think so,” I answered.

“He should probably go see a doctor don’t you think?”

Coburn didn’t want to talk about it. None of us wanted to talk about it. I quickly closed my eyes and cranked my Ipod. Rules and the Dallas Beauty Queen began to sketch. Coburn turned away from us all. Looked out the bus window at the passing wooden houses, where perhaps he sought solace in anonymous, simple tenants. Who liked their roads inefficient. Their vodka strong. And their secrets left buried, like old Tsars and regimes.